Taytum Wins...

Oh my dear friend, you are too funny!  For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, read Taytum's comment on my last post.  She's a funny kid, made me leak a few tears through my giggles!  No, I didn't give up showering, but I combined a few things to "create" a few extra minutes here and there.

Maelee has been sick the past few days so I have had her snuggled up on my lap today while I poured over close to 700 photos from the past few weeks {No, we haven't been THAT busy.  Yes, I take a lot of pictures.  I have wiggly kids who like to be out of focus.  If I take a ton, I get uno that's what I originally wanted.  That's my story folks}, and I narrowed them all down pretty well... to just over 100.  I would LOVE to post them all on here, but that would take a year and a half to upload and to be honest my rear is completely numb on one side.  I was actually doing jumping jacks between batches of pictures but I guess it didn't help a whole lot!

I have every intention of catching up on here, and mainly because this really is my journal {since I'm usually too exhausted to use the pink one by my bed before I crash} and I don't want to lose these precious memories in my old brain-farty mind.  I'm tellin' ya, 27 is SO OLD!!!  Moving on...  :O)

I want to get started on my catching up by posting this week's exciting news:



We finalized Marcus' adoption!!!  Wednesday morning it was officialized, notarized, and woohooized!  It feels so strange to be so close to being completely finished with adoption.  It's been such a HUGE part of our lives for the past 6 years and to be on the threshold of moving on from it is... indescribable.  Adoption will always be a part of who our family is - we will always have our amazing birth families to help us wrangle these adorable munchkins into {hopefully} all-around-great-kiddos.  So it's not like we're "finished" with adoption in that sense, but to be done with paperwork, waiting, emotional roller coaster, draining our savings account side of it is SO a perk!!

We will be joining our family and friends in the Temple this Saturday, April 21st, at 5 {be there at 4:30} to have him sealed to our family for eternity {you should see the absolutely adorable white suit I found for him!!  I also got him the cutest plaid newsboy cap.  LOVE IT!!!} and blessing him the next day at 1 in our ward, which will be followed by brownies and ice cream at Clint's parent's house.  Everyone is welcome to come and celebrate this wonderful weekend with us!  We look forward to seeing everyone and taking these last steps toward completing our family.  :O)

The Truth

I don't like my computer.

Scratch that.  I'm addicted to my computer.  It sucks me in.  I enjoy that I have a laptop and can set up camp on the kitchen table and not be confined in a room away from my family.  I like that I can unleash my creativity through my blog, photography, Photoshop, Blurb, writing and all that other digital artsy-fartsy stuff.  It gives me an outlet to re-charge my batteries and identify myself when those "I'm a crazy lady and need a break" moments come up.  I find it amusing to wander around Pinterest, catch up on Facebook, read the latest news on Yahoo! or simply kick back to a friend's latest Blog post.  I love the convenience of the world at my fingertips - that even though I live in a small community I have access to anything I {think that I} need. :O)

All that is great.  But it's time consuming and that's the problem.  I don't have enough time.  I constantly feel like I'm running late {by 10 minutes, pretty religiously.  It's almost sad that I'm "that person".  Sigh.  Working on it!!!}, always feel like I've dropped the ball on at least one thing and never feel like the efforts I make are good enough.

Don't get me wrong, this post is NOT to whine.  I'm not having a pity party, honest.  This is leading up to a realization, an epiphany if you will that I have had.  I need to weed out the "good" and only leave the "great".  I need to prioritize.  If I dread getting on my computer, then that's me telling me that I spend too much time on it.  I know that as soon as it turns on, my self control struggles to stay afloat.  It's pathetic, but that's my confession.  I can literally spend hours here, exhausting myself to the very core - emotionally, physically...  I'm like a zombie, a short-tempered walking dead person.

Adopting Marcus has been such a blessing.  I took a vacay from my addiction and was able to see from the distance how bad it was, how little I actually enjoyed it {or at least the consequences of it}, and how little I really needed my daily "fix" of cyberspace.  At first I craved plugging back in, but now...  I literally dread turning this frienemy on.  It's crazy that I'm still plowing through feelings of thinking I'm "so behind" and "such a failure" that I haven't blogged in so long or updated my status.  There is so much more to who I am and who I want to be than my cyberself.  And 2 of those things are watching Super Why while I write this post.  I should be there, huddled under Maelee's purple butterfly blanket with them, waiting to solve the question with my super readers.

By being there, my dear reader, is why I haven't been on top of my posting.  I've been letting go of THIS for THAT.  THAT is where I belong.  THAT is where I want to be and THAT... is the truth.